Having experienced the destruction of encountering persons who, individually and collectively, are not only capable of - but willing to intentionally do harm, I have directly learned the true significance of learning as well as receiving only from healers with solid ethics, sound integrity and warmth of heart.
Unfortunately, not all "healers" are in the true business of healing as the hunger for power and knowledge as well as the presence of ego, greed and competition take precedence. Unfortunately, even self-identified light workers will attack other light workers. Unfortunately, even the women's circle is not necessarily either safe or sacred. Unfortunately, even some teachers may operate from or within darkness. Unfortunately, even among those whom are now teaching protection, are those whom one needs to be protected against.
While not a pleasant subject, this is a real one. Whether due to collusion, fear, denial or otherwise - even when known there seems to be a veil of silence which serves to perpetuate the continuation of this practice. This is a truth which needs to be voiced.
Along the way I have encountered individuals with their own "attack" experiences and their own reactions. For some recovery was quick. For others it was much more long term. For some the change in their lives was greater mindfulness, stronger protection, different associations and/or a complete lifestyle change. For some, recovery has been illusive.
As there is definitely and undoubtedly significant energy medicine work being conducted which is respectfully powerful, honorable and beautiful, there is also energetic work being conducted that is intentionally dark, harmful and controlling. Having been on the receiving end, it can be a level of suffering that no one should endure. Having been on the receiving end, I am "giving voice" to this issue. Understanding that this has been happening for eons, while not in my control, it is my hope that someone else will not be harmed as I have been. It takes on a whole different meaning when it happens to you.
Fortunately and in my effort to heal, I have also seen the very best of people. Some were harmed and/or compromised by this process, but their healing contributions will never be forgotten. Each did what they could or would within their area of expertise. It is important that I express my gratitude for the blessings as well as the lessons learned along the way. In their own way, they were each priceless.
Ironically, years ago it was told to me that I could never again go out into the world unprotected. While a person who already practiced protection which needed an upgrade, I was later ill-prepared for the aggressive, relentless, multi-pronged and long term attack carried out by "healers", some knowingly and some unknowingly. I was, in fact, somehow unaware that people, so-called healers, could be so absolutely cruel, as they watched for the fruits of their intended labor.
Once again, this is not about blame. It is about responsibility - the responsibility to "First, Do No Harm". The responsibility to as a Community Leader be mindful of the well-being of that Community. The responsibility to as a Community Elder be mindful that with power comes responsibility. The responsibility to as a Teacher be mindful not only of what you are teaching but what your students are doing in the name of and within that learning community. The responsibility as a Shaman to practice the healthy aspect of shamanism and not the unhealthy aspect of sorcery. The responsibility as a Medicine Person to practice good medicine and not bad medicine. The responsibility of the Healer to honor the sacred trust within the healer-client relationship and not destructively use the client information gained for one's personal benefit thereby having no regard for whom gets hurt - including the client. The responsibility as a student, seeker and/or client to seriously practice self care mindfully being aware of and acting upon what is happening around you and accepting the signs that are telling you to look closer, stop, proceed with caution and/or get out. While not always obvious, both the telling and the knowing are there. Of course, this could be complicated by numbing and/or clouding being "administered" in an attack.
Sometimes you are dealing with something relatively small. Sometimes, and in my case, you are dealing with something HUGE. In either case and as it was told to me, make no mistake in understanding, that this is a fight - meaning it is to be understood and dealt with very seriously. Indeed, it can be a fight for your life. Even in the midst of a fight, which has included further surrender to the Divine, has been and is the assertion that I will remain working and living only in the Light.
An experience such as this wherein you are essentially kicked out of key aspects of your own life, through another's use of "bad energy medicine" against you for the determined benefit of others, certainly offers an added level to the question - Do you truly know who you are? Birth YOUR Truth. That would be YOUR TRUTH - not someone else's. We each hold our own beauty. Go within and emerge!
Namaste - The Divine in Me Greets The Divine in You.
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Be well,
"Margaret Marianna" /
Margaret L. Rollins
